黰真

2011-01-06T19:43:00.003+08:00

Life is not easy and it never is.
I am a coward, I let my staff stand on my head, and yet I still dare not voice out.
I am a whinner, but maybe according to my mum, that is just sharing information, life experience.
Well, these are the 2 things I definitely need to change. definitely, No more Whinning, and no more coward. I need to stand on my feet. I need to be optimistic.

Ms Tan told me, she got nothing to complain about her husband, not at all. Nothing she can think of, I believe this is not because there is no problem, it is just that they didn't emphasized on the problem but their happiness. She is a lucky woman because she cherish her life. I think I should too... She is someone I need to learn from, someone I need to look upon to - althought there is part of her that I am not that fond with -- her ambitious. When I told her I was thinking of obtaining ACCA, MIA, or CIMA, she told me her target is just M.R.S, and she already is.

2011-01-05T22:23:00.005+08:00

This is the first blog for the Year 2011, I think I should write something good despite of the crapy feeling I have now.

Earlier this week, actually the end of last week; to be exact on 31 Dec 2010, I wrote on my skype status that my New Year Resolution is that I should stop stacking New Year Resolution. Meaning no more New Year Resolutions until I clear my old one.... So lazy huh... Which was one of the resolutions I need to clear out of my way...

Oh well, welcome to year 2011.... Lot of things need to be complete this year. Hope everything will be running smoothly...

And I will have a chance to say at the end of the year that Yr 2011 was the perfect year.....

2010-11-24T19:17:00.003+08:00

When you thought you were running out of a problem, you actually ran into a bigger one........ The worst part is, the former problem was not yet solved, but the current problem is like a snow ball slicing on the mount Himalaya, getting bigger and bigger............. My mind is telling me to run away from this problem, and so as my heart. But, I knew, at the end, just right before I run away, my heart will be in doubt.........

What do I want in my life

2010-07-29T19:57:00.004+08:00

What do I want in life?
Been asking myself since yesterday, and been remind to think about it when my boss asked me today. Frankly, I don't know.
What I always been doing is what I thought will be better for me.
What I want to be? Successful.
Well, be more particular...
Wish that I could be a working girl in a big company that is manageral level...
More particular...
There is where I stuck.
What do I really want to be?
My boss told me that, I shouldn't have take the ACCA, with the ACCA, it will take me about 4 years to pursue for this recognition, and I will stuck in a company and just be an accountant, with tons of workload -- including a boring life.
Else, I can go into banking field, and start my life from there...Continuing my Phd degree after one or two years working experience. According to him, it will be a better career opportunity, and better for my career growth.
Or I can choose to be a siu lai lai, enjoy life from there....
Wait, he also throw me 2 other options:
First, Go and buy a bunch of lottery, and if I win the first prize, I don't have to work for life.......
Second, is just stay there and stuck there.

Obviously, I think my boss really don't like the place he is working now..
But, what should I do? I wish I have a cleared mind, knowing what I want in life, and no wasted my time... After all, I am getting old...

Back to square 1, what do I want???????????????????

2010-07-22T20:01:00.003+08:00

After reading HC's blog on Inception, have such an urge to go for that movie. Eva came back and mentioned that her friend also recommend that movie.. Then I suggest that we go to the movie this weekend. And she was so happy and nodded her head.
I told her then, how about she give me a treat, and I will take her to the theater, she replied me with this,

" I don't want to watch this movie anymore"

What a nice sister!!!!!

2010-07-18T14:56:00.002+08:00

刚刚又泡了一杯咖啡，一杯香浓浓的咖啡。。。
说实在的，即使只嗅，不喝，也蛮享受的了。。。
以往，常常在冬天时刻，泡着一杯热烘烘，香浓浓的咖啡。。。
那是一种幸福的感觉。。。一点点的温馨在冰冷冷的寒天中。所有的烦恼都抛在脑后

2010-06-24T23:31:00.000+08:00

Forgive But Never Forget

2010-04-06T19:49:00.003+08:00

Today, feel like such a failure.. My staff is getting worst. Chatting all day without working on their task. I don't mind if they were just talking, but skype all day. All I see is their pc screen displaying the skype window. Then, when I rush them for the report, they complained that they do not have enough time. The thing is I would really appreciated if they can tell me in person, rather than asking the big fat annoying lady ... Always complaining about here and there, and acting like she is the boss... I am really feeling defeated. Maybe I can not be a leader... Really feel like giving up.. but there is no other way. I might be able to find another job else where, but if I were to lead people, I believe I will encountered this kind of issue again.
There is no other way, I need to conquer this issue...

2010-04-01T08:16:00.002+08:00

Finally, getting myself a new car... put in the application on saturday, get approval on wednesday, and signed the contract on wednesday night. Was amused by the way the loan manager work here in M'sia, they do not even brief you nor give you a tiny chance to read the title of the contract you signed. I understand I do have a right not to sign, but I guess I am way too stupid.

2010-03-29T20:06:00.002+08:00

My boss is someone who is quite moody... When he is in good mood, he will joke with you, otherwise, stay out of his way... Anyway, he is someone who has great humor... haha
I heard he once told my colleague about how his marriage is buy one get two free ---> if you were think about kids, then you are wrong... The two items that are free here are his parents-in-law. He like to talk about this kind of issue and then show his helpless face... quite hilarious sometime...
But when he show his cold face... it will be really scary!!!! No time for Joke!!! A very brilliant person... Really, can tell only by working for him for 5 months now..

2010-03-05T20:09:00.002+08:00

Pretty moody at the moment. Always tell myself not to whine in the blog, but I guess, this will be another whinning blog. I wonder why it took me so long to get used to my current job. My staff been showing me black face all day. I guess it is very hard for me to get used to Malaysia culture... I know I should adapt to it.... but....

Been telling myself that I NEED to be happy... forget about the sad thing, or anything that upset me.. but always end up burst into tear...

I am so fed up with myself...

2010-03-04T12:59:00.002+08:00

It happened to me all the time that I do not dare to voice out... Seriously, really don't understand what is the worst that can happened, why do not dare to even speak up... Boss just ask some questions. why answer in fear?
Seriously, I really need to learn to speak up, at least not speak in fear.
So, I need to conquer this fear... Speak UP!!!!

2010-03-01T20:10:00.003+08:00

Wow, I actually did not post anything last month... haha.. well, got way too lazy? or overpack? I will take both...
Actually have 2 great news last week... but then this week had began with bad incident...
Just to update my readers... I am confirmed,... haha.. well, sort of proud of myself, as the appointment letter said that there will be 6 months probation periods, but I manage to cut it short... haha... also got a great review as well, just not good raise :-( Anyway, cannot ask for too much, right... As for my other great news, I don't know how accurate that is. Wonder if it is final yet myself, or still changable...
But today, start to feel aweful... colleague keep telling me that my stomach is gonna have a big hole... and I am feeling aweful... stomach not feeling good, the whole month taste so sour, almost feel like faint....
Also, my laptop can not access wireless internet...
Other than that, I have been great....

Just a few update...

2010-01-28T19:52:00.002+08:00

Well, let talk about self awareness today... haha
Hmm... The first thing I notice when I come back is I am no longer a reckless driver.... Not because I do not have a car or driver license... But rather, through the comparison, I am considered a very very very law obey driver....
Oh well, not going to talk about the driving now...
It is more like the environment that I am concern.. Apparently, people just throw all their trash out of their car... Can find a lot of trash on the roadside... this is very very bad.... Ruin the appearance plus encourage the "reproduction" of mosquistoes... and the scratches on my leg.... Sigh....
Who is going to clean up those mess? MPSP? I wonder how many people needed to be hired in order to clean up all these mess... I don't know what to say, but hopefully in the near future, people will learned about the consequences of their act and start behaving...

2010-01-23T12:11:00.002+08:00

Last 2 weeks was a battle... preparing the quarterly report, final report and dealing with the auditor.. Got a lot to do... Busy, busy, busy...
Someone told me, busy mean lousy planning.... I guess I am... a lousy planner
Brought a lot of work home... Just don't have the mood to work on it.. Lazy, lazy, lazy....
Wanted to update this blog for a while, but the brain got empty most of the time... It still is..

So..

2010-01-18T08:06:00.002+08:00

Been busy to update this blog lately, plus everytime when I write, I dunno if I should post it... My heart been swamped with fear... not just tiny.. a lot... I don't know what lie ahead of me...
All I know is, my faith is no longer up to me....... and it scare the hell out of me!!!

2010-01-13T20:35:00.002+08:00

So, this is a photo of my mum's daughters.... All of them... Apparently, I am the chubbiest among all my sis...

But, sort of like this photo...

Eva said, " I am the prettiest"

2010-01-04T20:27:00.003+08:00

The house really got so quiet after 3 sisters back to school/work/home... need to be careful when I talk about this.. else will kena one....
The past few days was great other than the last day when I got the flu attack...
The niece and nephew are so adorable... Eldest one is Xiang Xiang.. Since he is the eldest and know quite a lot already, he is sort of high maintenance... Very very picky.. It is not that easy to carry him... unless you trick him that if he let you carry, you will take him to pai pai... work every time, so easy to tipu him... No offense, I never trick him that way... he on the other hand like to ask me to go pai pai... :(
Xuen Xuen is less than a year old... She has a big big eye, and the way she looked at you... the way she smile, the way she "teh" you.... can really steal your heart away...
haha... other than that, she called 2 yee first lah.... hahaha.... only called when she wants me to carry her oh....
Wish that I can see them again soon.. Only until Chinese New Year...

2010-01-04T13:13:00.003+08:00

As I told myself, I need to be strong, need to fight the virus, and be healthy to past this coming week.... I was defeated. So so tired now... broke my 2 years record and caught a cold...
Start to forget about this type of miserable until today....
Can barely open my eye now, apparently, don't think I can finish everything this week... Need to sacrified my weekend already .. :'(
Anyway, what I hope for, is that I can lay on my bed now... and close my eye.. and rest...

2009-12-31T23:23:00.002+08:00

So, in another 35 minute, will be good bye 2009, and hello 2010...

One thing I love about this new life is, friends and colleague here sms the wishes during Birthday, Christmas and New Year.... make me feel so warm, feel that I am no longer alone in this world...

I did spent these celebrations alone last year,... Pretty sad huh?

Now, people around me are celebrating it with me...

Therefore, I believe that this is gonna be a new start, a good new start... Things will be better in the coming year.. and I will make my biggest effort to make sure it work...

2009-12-30T20:52:00.005+08:00

Feel like gonna fall sick soon... hmm... can't afford to be sick, next week will be a huge battle... Been super bored these few days as all my tasks are done for this month, and still waiting for data to prepare next month's report... Yeah, next week will be definitely scary... Most Probably have to work "unpaid"-overtime and say sayonara to my weekend....

Oh well, who care.. It is the end of 2009, and another new beginning...
Bye bye 2009, and hello 2010!
Plus, 3 days holidays, and a chance to see my dearest and adorable nephew and nieces... ---> if my sis din cheat on us again lah....
So, forget about the work first, enjoy and relax myself for this holiday...

So, what is my new year resolution... A friend once told me that it is useless to have new year resolution.. if you feel that there are room for improvement, just do it! don't have to wait for the new year... also, according to him, those who always wait for the new year to make new year resolution are most likely not gonna keep it...

Hmm..... I guess I can still list the thing I wish to complete next year qua...
So... what is my plan????

well..... too many on the list.... need to rush my plan before 2012...

See, when I said 作者不适，I mean it... this is NOT another crazy blog...

So, Last but not Least

To my dearest readerssssssssss,

Happy New Year.
May this Coming New Year better than the Last...
And Thanks for your support, your comment really make me feel so warm....

CC Kheong

2009-12-29T00:33:00.004+08:00

作者不适，休稿n天。。。。

2009-12-27T17:07:00.002+08:00

Speech is a joint game between the talker and teh listener against the forces of confusion. Unless both make the effort, interpersonal communication is quite hopeless.

--Norbet Weiner,
"The Human Use of Human Beings"

2009-12-27T13:17:00.002+08:00

What to do when your heart do not agree with your mind? Your heart is telling one, and your mind is telling you another....

Mind has elaborate what the consequences, and the damages are...

Heart is otherwise....

Wondering myself, who will win this conflict.

2009-12-26T13:58:00.002+08:00

There was another terrorist attempted on the christmas day, I guess. What the hell are these terrorists thinking... Why would they want to kill innocent... Haven't they seen the sad faces in Sept 11? Countless people lost their loving one, and might be still suffer now. Why? What can that help? Really, what can they get from these attempts?

Don't they know that they have already cause lots of inconvenience to people already on top of heart broke?... The security check in the airport has been so trouble... Packing for travel had been so difficult... I have lost countless of hand lotions in transit... Errrrrgghhhh...

2009-12-26T09:32:00.003+08:00

Mr H.C.
This blog is just for you... As you said last night that I was not blogging.... Apparently, I need to address the blog to you to make sure you see it.. hehe... But still have no idea how you actually access to the internet when Amy said that the hotel is in such a bad shape...

Well, actually really touch about the call last night... but I am definitely a lot better already... It is nice to meet my buddy... but ehh... not so nice to trouble him again lah... Always kacau him...

Sorry to make you lost your appertite, I guess I owe you another treat... When you come back on New Year lah, will definitely give you big treat...

Oh man, owe people countless treat already...

P/S. Since this blog is already address to you, I am expecting your reply lah... can also expect your gf's reply too...

2009-12-25T07:19:00.002+08:00

It is Christmas day... An event where family celebrate together, and I choose to be alone.... What really got into me?

Who care? It is gonna be my date with myself and maybe Mr. Chow (he had been ignoring me quite a lot lately, causing me become Ms. panda), ... for this wonderful season...

Merry Christmas!!!
P/s. I heard it is a white christmas in where I used to live, dang, after all these year, it snow on the year I left...

2009-12-23T02:00:00.002+08:00

When Ai Ling posted a quiz of her in F/b, she said she like the number 9 the most, cause it was the month of her birthday.... I can't help but wonder, why month but not date?
Personally, I love number 23 the most... Don't get me wrong, I still like number 12, but 23 more. haha... Feel so happy whenever I see something with the number 23...not for 12 though.

In the movie Serendipity, when the two main characters were situated in different elevator, and chosing the number of floor to reach to decide if they were mean for each other, they both choose the number 23... and I am sort of proud of that, cause that is my number...

2009-12-23T01:42:00.002+08:00

Can't sleep tonight, wonder why!!! The work of the coffee and the milk tea???
Oh well, feeling tired and hungry now.... Eat or sleep????

2009-12-22T13:02:00.002+08:00

Last sunday, went to Old Town have a drink, and bought the milk tea pack, got 2 and the sales person told me to get 3, he put it in the bag already so, I just let it go.... But I remember seeing the sign that it costs only RM6.50. Then, later mum keep saying that I should have got it from the grocery store as it will be cheaper. But I manage to win the argument, as the bigger size is RM12.95. Just a few cent more expensive.... so, don't have to worry about it...
Just now while I was browsing through the receipt, I "accidentally" notice that the milk tea is RM 9/pack........

hmmm.... Just out of curiosity, why is the sales person told me to get 3 packs when I do not get a deal for 3 packs, yet charged me more than the sign said...

Anyway, maybe I read the sign wrong... Can't let mum know, else, the nagging will go on.....

2009-12-22T08:18:00.002+08:00

Last night received a long distance call from a dear dear friend, send me her wishes... So touch...
I can say she is the one who know me the best, as well as treat me...
I first met her in 2006 in a chinese restaurant. She told me that the first time she saw me sitting in the corner of the room, and thought I was only a high school student. (haha, don't even forget to mention that I looked younger than my age here...)
Oh well, she is a very nice lady, a generous one as well. She did really care about my happiness... Always always give me her full support...

(Gtg, need to work, to be continue...) --> still need to see if I got the mood!!!!

2009-12-17T13:21:00.002+08:00

Oh well, finally decided to see doctor after weeks of torture.. Eye sore!!! Thought the eye lashes drop into the (kornea??) Anyway, when I filled up the application form, dad said dun need to put down all sympton. So, I just put eye sore...

Then when I met with the Dr., I start to describe what my sickness is.. My eye is hurt, and sometime it caused the back of my head hurt, and dizzy too.... When I eat the first bite, I also feel dizzy.

He start to smile... and said, "your eye looked ok to me, not affected" , "I will prescribe you some medicine to relax your mind"

then I told him, I can feel the eye lashes in my eye, then he smile again and get thr torch light and checking my eye, and smile again said that it looked ok to him, since it is not red in color..

Btw, the smile he shown in his face ahh... I don't know how to describe it.... It is like..

(to be continue... need to get back to work)

2009-12-17T08:32:00.001+08:00

Omg, when I go home tonight, need to start looking for another thing --> my watch...
How can I be so careless lately ???

Footprints

2009-12-15T13:09:00.002+08:00

One night a man dreamed he was walking along the beach with the lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: One belonged t0 him and the other to the lord.

When the last scene flashed before him, he noticed that during the saddest, lowest times in his life there was only one set of footprints.

He asked the lord about it, the lord replied, "My precious child, I love you and would never leave, when you needed me most. The footprints are mine, for that is when I carried you."

2009-12-14T13:20:00.002+08:00

I know I shouldn't whine AGAIN, but, cannot tahan already...
My eyes has been hurting me for days... Don't know what is wrong with it...
And found out that I lost my favourite necklaces this morning before I left the house. Oh god, please, just let it be misplaced. I cannot lost it, please. There is no way I can get a new one exactly like it, and as precious as it.
Really want to go home, and rest my eyes. But apparently when I reach home, time to start my search for the necklace.

2009-12-07T13:11:00.002+08:00

SO sleepy now... Last 2 days, althought is weekend, still, not getting enough sleep. Can't sleep at night, well, take it back, can sleep but not sleeping well...
Brain is not functioning now.. Need to prepare the report latest by tomorrow
So... God bless me

How your mind is playing with you

2009-12-06T18:49:00.003+08:00

There was a guy who got promoted and felt excited.
He was happy and intend to keep this feeling last longer...
So, he try to think of the way to keep this happiness.
The more he think, the more the happiness faded away...
At the end, while he was thinking about how this happy thought might be ruin, the happiness and excitement are gone, and he started to feel sad and worry...

On the other hand, the other guy who just got retrenched was sad...
Not only does he being swamp by the feeling sad, he was also worry about his living too..
But then he started to think about how this downfall might lead him to a whole new start, how he can start explore another new career, the sadness and worry are all gone.. and he started to feel hope and excitement....

2009-12-06T17:37:00.000+08:00

Are intelligents, talents and personality fixed? Or they can be developed?

2009-12-03T20:29:00.004+08:00

There was something that Ross said in the series "Friends" that always being a laughing stock between me and a friend... " Why? Why bad things happened to good people?", claim Ross after discovered the complementary lotion/shampoo that he took from the hotel spilt all over his luggage.
"Friends" no doubt is one of the hit series that is so ... amazing!!!

So, why bad things happened to good people? While good things happened to bad people?

2009-12-02T20:56:00.002+08:00

Well, mum just told me about the fact that I just got my first birthday present. Haha, but she is not too sure about that. It was from Ah 3, but hey, come on, don't give cash lah, I will appreciate it better if it is just a birthday card. I do appreciate that, but since you are coming home, how about celebrate your sis bday with her after ten years?? I don't mind buying... HC, you will ask her to read this, right???
Well, last year was not a good memory, as a matter of fact, the worst so far.. so, wish that this year will be better.... Anyway, dad just told me that his bday is not yet here, and I shouldn't even think of mine... Dang...

2009-12-02T20:46:00.002+08:00

well, I guess I am just like that, never know how to appreciate a thing unless I am losing it....
Finally, the washer broke down :(, and I have to wash the load by myself. Apparently, all my clothes become so delicate that I have to hand wash them. After the load, I realize how amazing/useful/important/.... the washer is. I know it is important all along, but not as strong as how I feel now....Really cannot live without it. After that load, my dinner was digested. Also, lost the appetite to eat as well, cause it is way too tired...
Oh well, I miss you so much, hopefully can get a new one this weekend.. else, else, ... (please, no else, there are no contigency plan)

I think Tonight the light will be on

2009-12-01T22:28:00.002+08:00

Well, just heard about a haunted encountered of a friend. And I know for sure that, either my light will be on tonight, or I will squeeze in dad and mum's room...
I prefer the former one lah....
so, turn on the light to sleep tonight.....

2009-11-12T21:45:00.003+08:00

I think I am gonna follow my past footstep.. becoming fat fat chin,.....AGAIN
Cann't stop eating, really, always think of foods, foods, foods...
when I wake up, working, break,.... even before sleep.... Non-stop eating... Gonna become chubby fairly soon...
I think it will be wiser if I start limiting the intake....
Else, I will have to suffer from the consequences of becoming..... tua bui chin...

“假如生活欺骗了你”

2009-11-12T20:52:00.003+08:00

“假如生活欺骗了你” 普希金诗

假如生活欺骗了你，
不要悲伤，
不要性急，
阴郁的日子需要镇静。
相信吧！那愉快的日子终将来临。。。
心里永远憧憬着未来，
一切都会过去，
一切都会瞬息。
而那过去了的，
将会变成亲切的怀念。。。

2009-11-11T21:54:00.002+08:00

What do you think about facebook?
It begins with get connected with all your friends. Knowing their everyday lifestyle, and reconnected with your old friends. Which is a big plus.. But after a while, log in to facebook is really a waste of time. A lot of people simply update their status with the lousiest sentences. Tired... sleepy.... I think I did have that status once or twice.. well, maybe more than that... It was fun at first, people respond to you, showing how they care about you and acknowledge your emotion. Yet, it sort of feel ridiculously useless after a while... seeing the same status over and over again..

2009-11-11T20:07:00.002+08:00

I am so pleased to know no matter what, I will have a fan who always check out my blogs.. Haha, well, can always find his comment a day after I post the blog... Thanks a million....

Anyway, before I have another fan that check out my blog alot and leave comments as well... But, I think lately she is a bit busy....

2009-11-10T19:53:00.002+08:00

I sincerely think that Malaysian police can make a lot of money from giving out the ticket. Honestly, two car drive in a one lane road simultaneously, isn't that violate the law? And it happened to the same road every single day... So, why didn't they try to catch these people and make a fortune for Malaysian government, and at the same time, reduce these driving behaviors..

2009-11-08T21:35:00.003+08:00

Gosh, it is so hot today.. It had been a while since I feel hot at this time of the year... Unbelievable hot...for the past few years, used to wear long sleeve, jacket, bla bla bla...
But now, feeling so hot even with a short and t-shirt.... I think I am gonna dehydrated soon.... becoming salted fish......

2009-11-08T19:44:00.002+08:00

Well, have been trying to post something new for the whole week and yet can't seem to find a topic to write up... Let's see... hmmm....
Wait, finally found out the name of a song I like.. it is called my happy ending, by Avril Lavigne... think I caught this song a lot in TV, and yet have no idea what the name is... So excited about that... Cause really like that song... Browsing through Avril Lavigne's songs, and found out that I actually pretty familiar with her songs....

Penang Bridge Marathon

2009-10-30T17:55:00.003+08:00

Well, been talking about running the penang bridge marathon ever since I came back. At first, none of my sis are free. Now, it seem like my eldest is gonna join me.. Well, she better let me know asap, tomorrow is the last day for registration...
else, probably have to wait till next year... I think they do have it every year, right????

2009-10-24T23:17:00.001+08:00

Can one plus one always equal two???

2009-10-23T08:51:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, in my interview, the interviewer were telling me that his only concern is that I am overqualified, and want me to give him my word that if I were to hired for the position, I will at least stay there for 2 years... Actually, I don't know how to tell him that I think that is the least problem he should have. My biggest weaknesses is I am afraid of changes. I like the feeling of secure, I like to live in the life that I am used to.
Then, I revised the book - who moved my cheese.. Oh well, it was a book recommended by a friend when I told him that I prefer to stay in the life I am used to, and do not want to get into the maze and lost... Can't tell him how much I appreciated him to recommend me this book...
There are 4 characters in this book -- Sniff, Scurry, Haw and Hem. Sniff and Scurry, the 2 mice, always alert about what is about to be happened and always act fast to survive..
Haw is the more common type, as after several attempt, when he finally conclude that the old fashion way is no longer work, and althought scare of the maze, still willing to venture out to find his cheese.. I love his quote -- what would you do if you weren't afraid. Do not fear of losing, do not fear of getting hurt, do not fear of obstacle, do not let fear stop you from becoming. Searching in the maze is a challenge and can make life more excited and interesting..
Hem, is the little person I am trying to avoid to become, who refuse to change and refuse to accept the fact that the condition is already changed. PLEASE never ever be him...
Observed, adapt, planning, and act...

2009-10-22T14:14:00.004+08:00

You know, sometime, coincident will just happened. I always turn off my cell phone when I am at the interview, and somehow no one ever called me.. and today, I forgot to turn it off and someone actually called me, then send me sms as well... Sigh.....a very good lecture for me.....
REMEMBER TO TURN OFF CELL PHONE!!!!!!

Article I received from a friend

2009-10-01T20:47:00.003+08:00

句句到肉

樹多必有枯枝，人多必有白癡。
君子報仇，三年不晚。
小人報仇，一天到晚。
帥有個屁用！到頭來還不是被卒吃掉！
騎白馬的不一定是王子，可能是唐僧；
帶翅膀的不一定是天使，也可能是"鳥人"。
就算是 Believe 中間還是有個 lie 。
就算是 Friend 最後還是會有個 end。
就算是 Lover 最後還是會 over。
就算是 forget 也要先 get 才行。
樹不要皮，必死無疑。
人不要臉，天下無敵。
懷才就像懷孕，時間久了才能讓人看出來。
上帝給了我們七情六慾，我們卻把它們變成了色情和暴力。
客戶是神，因為客戶不是人。
前程四緊就是: 手頭緊、眉頭緊、衣服緊、時間緊。
世上沒有任何的成功，能夠彌補家庭的失敗。
幸福離我們很近，但我們都忘了靠近。
天底下沒有所謂複雜的事情，是人的思維和感情把它複雜化了。
能者多勞，疲勞的勞。

Just a few though -- self motivate, hahaha

2009-09-29T15:07:00.004+08:00

失败过后，可以重来吗？
A quote that really caught my mind yesterday when I watched the MILO advertisement. The kid was so naive and ask if he can start it over if he failed. I can't help but wonder, can I? Giving up too easy is not the characteristic of someone with achievement. When we were little, start over seemed to be too easy. Lose the game, go ahead and start a new game. A fall during the run mean nothing, stand up and clean the wound and start the run again. It seem that it is getting harder to start over when you getting older. I guess it was due to the pride that had caused the difficulty.
Anyway, bare in mind that harder does not mean impossible.. So, stand up, and clean the wound, and let's start the run again.. You know you can do it!!!!

Me? lecturer? what do you think?

2009-09-28T22:46:00.002+08:00

well, gonna interview to be a lecturer this wednesday, what do you think? Me being a lecturer? Can I? Should I?

2009-09-27T20:33:00.002+08:00

Last week - the Raya holiday, all my sisters were back from out of town, first time in nine years, the whole family gathering...
Gosh, everyone change alot, not Amy though, probably because I have a chance to meet with her in the state, and she sort of still remain unchange.. While, da jie, a mother of two, Ai ling, gonna be a 美女牙医soon... haha...
Now I am the "crocodile" for two small adorable kids... one name xiang xiang, and the other is xuen xuen.. They are so cute...
Xiang Xiang is now 2 years old and was tend to stick with me for the first couple of days... then he doesn't even want me to carry him the last day :'(.... While Xuen Xuen never say no, haha... what a lovely girl... Anyway, it is a pleasure to meet both of them, and I am so lucky to be their aunt -- HC might add this "crocodile" to my nick name ----> banana hating crocodile monkey??? weird..
Anyway, HC, thanks to you, now my nick in friend for sale is you are gonna bankrupt soon... choi choi choi.... you better think of a way to change it back!!!!!!!

怎么办呢？脑袋不能work le!!!!!

2009-09-26T22:19:00.003+08:00

As I mentioned in my previous blog, I think my brain is dying... :(
Promise a friend to write article, and the brain got all blank. Really have no idea how to continue... Normally, the sentences just flow in my head, but lately, brain can really go empty, nothing to be found even when I tried so hard to dig... What should I do????
Fish oil?

E-memory

2009-09-26T14:55:00.002+08:00

CNN has an interesting report regarding the Microsoft researcher Gordon Bell's proposal on e-memory. He has personally carry on video equipment, audio recorder and camera to record all the anedocted that he encounter everyday, every minute. He also scan every receipts. According to him, in year 2020, which is in 11 years, we should be able to search our memory...

Personally, I prefer to memorized the thing I want to. Without using the brain, they can be become useless if I keep let it at rest... which I think is already happened to me nowsaday. I think basically once concern about introducing the e-memory is that the brain functionality will getting worst, in which according to Mr. Bell that is not an issue as phone number has been save in the cell and never create any problem.. Well, think about it, in the emergency situation where you cell's batteries died, what can you do? use the public's phone, and I bet at that time, the brain is blank, who should we contact? I think the only phone number we can remember is our own at the moment, which might also be forgotten as we do not have to tell other our cell number thanks to bluetooth... So, what will really happened to our future, if we really relies on this technology to work as our brain?

I was once heard that typical people who spent their whole life working as an executive has a higher percentage of past away when they retired. As they have been using their brain for their entire working life and all of the sudden, their brain become empty when they retired.

It is pretty easy to save our memories nowsaday as there are so many function in the cell phone. Camera, cam-corder, note pad and etc... so, Mr. Bell's vision is not just a dream.. But, should we rely on this..?

Transfomer 2

2009-09-26T13:42:00.002+08:00

Just finished watching the movie transfomer 2.. heard a lot of bad reviews regarding this movie before I watch it. Not that bad actually. Oh well, can't really said that it beat the last one. But somehow, the technology used is bravo... There are more funny anadocted compare to the first one. I think the director sort of catch up with the public review that Megan Fox has a hot body and sort of showing it off in this movie.. The wikkiki's parent are still in their usual crazy condition...
There are actually more autobots in this movie where the funniest will be the twin, just too bad that the director actually use the chryslers' car for that... not that sharp lah..

Tired, hungry, ...

2009-09-17T18:13:00.002+08:00

Just finished 2 interviews today, think I am not doing that good. However, still hope for the best. I am so tired at this moment, haven't eat anything, just a cup of coffee, therefore, also very hungry now. But don't feel like eating after cooking. A very strange habit of mine -- Cannot eat after cooking, most probably because of the smoke and smell from the cooking...

Seem like it is gonna raining now...

Cooking !!!!

2009-09-16T11:19:00.003+08:00

Mum starts to work, and I still haven't find a job yet. So, obviously, I have to cook.

Oh well, wonder why when I cook for myself, the taste is still ok, but when I cook for the family, hehe... So so bad..

haha!! Poor dad and mum and eva have to finish those bad bad cooking...

I don't know, try to find something to blame on... maybe it is the fire? it is different than how I used to, nope, the ingredient? haha!!

Face it dear, you are a bad cook... bad bad cook!!!! hahaha...

Oh well, then I guess I just have to GAMBATEE!!!!

Oh wait, need to get a job first lah

2009-09-09T16:52:00.001+08:00

好烦，好郁闷，不知道该做什么，该做的却做不下去。

2009-09-09T11:52:00.002+08:00

This morning went to the JPJ, I think to "remake" my driver license.. Haven't renew the license for 4-5 years already. Well, lucky thing they donot need me to retake the test.. hehe
Dad walked past the new car license plate number assignment board and looked at the notice there. Then, he started to show a sad face, very sady indeed, and said," Aiyah, it is too late to get the PJK car license plate already."
Hahaha, really cannot stand dad already lah, way too funny!!!!!

2009-09-08T19:23:00.002+08:00

I don't know what I am holding on to anymore. I should really give up.

Final Destination

2009-09-08T16:24:00.002+08:00

I always oppose to the movie final destination as it is insane. The way the director/writer kills the characters is unbearable -- insanity. Finally, watch my first ever final destination and it is just as I thought. Anyway, cover my eye through the whole movie. Eva was beside me, watch through the whole part. And she is seriously more brave than I do... She dare to watch through the whole thing. My tour guide for this movie... haha. Oh well, she is gonna take her test tomorrow. Hope she is gonna score!!!!

2009-09-04T20:58:00.002+08:00

Just read an article about one incident that happened in the state. A couple discovered a dead toad inside the pepsi. The husband feel that the pepsi taste disgusting and there is something inside the can, therefore, they poured out the drink and discovered a dead body -- hehe.
First, they thought it was a mice; Then after analyzed, it was actually a toad. Eeeww... Oh well, now, the pepsi co. denied the responsibility, and claimed that they have the best system to avoid any insect from getting in the can other than the drink!! and the couple was pretty pissed and will have a legal action toward this company!!!
So, what do you think? The couple tried to cheat for compensation or we should always be aware for the default free canning system in all the soda company? hehehe....

Just Join I Love Penang Food Society

2009-09-04T11:56:00.002+08:00

Well, hc keep on asking for new blog, new blog.. this future brother in law of mine is apparently not gonna let me abandon this blog. Been lazy to write, as I told him, whatever I wrote now, will be negative negative negative... It had been three weeks since I return, and still have not find a job, not even an interview..
Anyway.. He said I should write what I ate so far... Oh well, what I ate so far... First of all, definitely laksa, gosh, just love it.. still, the best laksa I have so far is the one in penang 7th street's market.. Just fantastic, taste is still maintained even after ten years, Bravo!!!! Then, Rojak. The rojak I have is a treat from aunt, hehe, pretty good... but seemed like missing something one... heehe!!! Haven't find the best hockien mee yet, those that I have so far, so so only... Same thing applied to the curry mee. What else?
hehe, well, went to tambun and have the seafood.. Pretty good, just that the crab is too small, too frustrated to eat!!! The rest are fantastic....hehe, satay too, delicious satay, just that it already add the sauce in. Still prefer the old fashion one. Meat is more crispy.
then, hmm... mee goreng, with squid on top, good but a little lemak..what else?
Anyway, I am way too picky, but overall, penang's food is the best!!!!!!

2009-08-25T13:39:00.005+08:00

很多人都喜欢看天上的星星，一闪一烁的，像是钻石在漫天闪烁着。

我喜欢的是挂在蓝天的云彩。白白的云彩，形形色色的，每一朵云彩都有自己独特的形状，好美好美。

心情再差的时候，看着蓝白分明的天空，郁闷都会一挥而消。。。

开始恋上蓝天的白云应该是画油画之后，开始发现天上的云彩有着不同的图案。而从此就染上了这个爱好。。。别人是借酒消愁，我是借云消愁。。。。

只是在黑夜里，下雨天，就有点麻烦。

黑夜里，就一睡解千愁吧。。。

至于下雨天嘛，看着哗啦哗啦的雨打在地下时，亦是另一番滋味。

2009-08-23T16:46:00.001+08:00

No matter what, no matter how hard you try to grab on something, you will lose it eventually....

100th post

2009-08-22T16:42:00.004+08:00

Well, normally for every sitcom that I watched, whenever they reach 100th episode. They will recap what happened before. I guess I will go ahead and do it here.
I just went through all childhood photos. Haha, those were the sweetest memory. My parents did give us a wonderful childhood memory. We went to lots of places for vacation, and took lots of photos. And as what mum said, my hand is very busy all the time, in every photo... All those laugh, (not only mine) were so sweet; no worry, just the laughter captured in the photos.
Those were the nicest days..

2009-08-21T13:01:00.001+08:00

Wow, believe or not, this is the 99th posts, which mean the next will be 100. Definitely need a good topic for that. Well, this post is to test how feed work. Already subscribe this page. Wondering what will happened when I upload a new content. Will I be inform or what. I guess my mentality is getting worst, getting slow to understand how thing work. Well, just have to test and see what happened.

2009-08-19T22:15:00.002+08:00

Was looking through the book shelf to search for my old book - Pride And Prejudice. Bought this book ten years ago before I left M'sia, and wasn't know that this book is a well known literature by Jane Austin. Just know that I can learn english from it, haha, it has both the english and chinese version. Anyway, since then, I start to love this novel. I wonder what I love about this, I guess I should say everything, been reading about this book over and over again... Maybe this novel is more like disney story... and they live happily ever after... haha...

Pride is from Mr. Darcy and Prejudice is from Elizabeth. Wait a minute, I think they both share these attitudes as well.. My eye is too tired to tell the story... hehe... But, I am still not able to find it...

Been seeking for the replacement for years, and yet unable to do so, cause still think that is the best version... hmmm.. definitely need to find that book!!!

2009-08-19T04:48:00.002+08:00

Don't know what to write when I come back. I dunno what else should I ask for. Ever since I came back, everyone had been so nice to me. But, still, so hard for me to adjust to the life here. My "monkey" attitude still haven't change, as I always kacau my sisters. This time, I manage to make the youngest cry on the 3rd day I came back. Till now, I guess she is still mad at me.

2009-08-12T21:46:00.001+08:00

Was telling Jenny the other day that I am always lucky that my flight always ON TIME. And never have the problem of transit, in which I was awfully wrong. As nine years ago, when I was returning home to Penang with dad and mum and Eva, the flight got delayed, and we end up miss our international flight... The good thing is the airlines provide us with accommodation at that time, replace our ticket… hehehe… But still, it was very tiring… And now, it happened AGAIN. One of the passengers was discover to have cesar??? (Will recheck this) in the mid-air, and we have to flight back to Atlanta after one to one and a half hour flight. Then when we reach the floor, the tired was discovered to have some problem after heavy loading landing or something like that. What a lucky day!!! Anyway, currently the maintenance personals are trying to fix the problem, and the aircraft was so hot just now that they have to ask the passengers to deplane. Well, I am the lazy one who refuses to walk out of the aircraft… Wonder how long will this take… And guess what? The pilot was saying that this aircraft already have some problems, even if we landed L.A. This is unbelievable.

Oh well, do not worry about the transit, as I have make an awful mistake while purchasing this ticket. I have to wait in L.A. for 7 hours originally in between transit, and 13 hours in Taipei... So, I should have no problem missing my next flight, unless they try their very best to. Anyway, wonder how am I supposed to survive the 13 hours in Taipei Airport? Oh well, waiting is not the worst part, the worst part is since the connecting flight take up to 13 hours in Taipei, they are not able to check my luggage in and I will end up with 6 luggage in Taipei Airport and stay overnight there……And the airline no longer provide the accommodation.

At the moment, I am exhausted, hungry, tired and just want this god damn plane to landed on L.A.

2009-08-11T01:43:00.002+08:00

Wonder when will I be able to travel again, but, please please check the iternary before purchase the ticket... I cannot believe I actually screw it up really bad.. First of all, the connecting flight in LA will take about 7 hours and then in Taipei will be 13 hours... Faint! Call the customer service and they said they airline no longer offer accomodation... Wish me luck then... no wonder it took me more than a day to reach penang... Will definitely check and check and check in the future...

恶作剧！！

2009-08-09T19:45:00.004+08:00

haha, my friend/coworker/landlord's grandson is here every weekend. And he sort of call everyone mama whenever he needs something (btw, whenever he called me mama, I can give him anything...).. And he call me mama alot, I can't really move my sight from him whenever he is in a room. My friend sort of make a joke that she will steal her grandson from her mama to let me take him home...

Took a lot of his photo and post it on my msn. Mum ask me who is this cute little boy. I told her that he called me mama and he is her grandson, and I will take him home... Haha, she buy it.... Hahahaha!!! But honestly, I was so touch that she said if that is my son, she will accept it no matter what.. Wow, thought if that ever happened, she will kill me.. Haha, And since amy was here last Nov, I told her that I kept him with a friend while amy was here. But then, Amy told me that I put her on table as mum ring her up and told her that she discovered the secret, and since Amy played with the baby while she was here, she should have warn her that she has another grandson. Hahaha, I guess mum is trying to fool her too...

My friend said I should have fool mum until the day I got back... Yet, I sort of think that is a bad bad idea as everyone else might know about that, and I will end up to be a fake mama that abandon her own baby.... Bad bad idea...

Well, how I wish he is my baby, as he is so cute, so adorable and so charming, his smile can steal away your worry....check him out

2009-08-07T20:29:00.004+08:00

Read my sister's blog yesterday and burst into tears. Every word she said is like ... well, not stone, but hmmm... dunno what to say.. Just that cannot stop myself from reading, and cannot stop my tear from flowing down...
Always check on the newly posted blog by my blog list. Saw her title, and have a feeling that it is about me... Every word she said in there is touching me, and make me feel awefully guilty. It has been ten years I stay in the state, and nine years since I left my family. Life here is busy, and I barely called back... Mum complained a lot, and I believe that I deserve it.. Been feeling guilty all these years. Always thought I can make it happened.. Always thought I will make it happen. And going home like this mean I am defeated. But after reading her blog, I am sure about my decision, I think it is time I should stop being so selfish, I have cause sadness in family for years.
I have miss so much, my sibling wedding, first born child ... Don't want to miss it anymore....

But hey, can anyone help me to pack? My room is swam with all my belonging, and I can only use two luggages....

2009-08-05T03:54:00.002+08:00

Driving around today try to get to the mall and got lost. As I said before, feeling lost is very scary, dunno where I am heading, wonder if I am driving far away from my destination... I didn't use the navigation although that will definitely be helpful in searching for my destination. Therefore I end up driving without direction for one hour and finally find my way. I wonder why I didn't use the navigator. Is it because I wish to enjoy the fun of driving, seeing all the sight seeing once more, or I dunno what to do at the destination, and try to find a good excuse to stay late.... They might all be true....
Anyway, I guess whatever happened next, just let it be...

2009-07-29T21:16:00.002+08:00

This morning before leaving the house, I read an article forwarded by da jie, which I think is very meaningful and really touch my heart. And I believe in very short future, I will received another copy from mum as she always forward mail that was already forward to me by Sabrina. I wonder why she never notice the forwarding name that I was already on the list. Anyway, if she happened to read this, she might get mad and not send me lah... Well, I know mum just want to share...
Well, back to the story. Actually, during my conversation with a friend last night, I was claiming my life isn't flowing smoothly, when he claim that his life has been pretty smooth...Of course, I gain a lecturer after that claim... Oh well, I think I deserved it. The letter forward by da jie, is regarding how a child is already been compared the minute he/she is borned... Once he/she arrived in this new world, people will start compare already... 'hey, our baby is the cutest in the room', ever since then, go to school, go to work,.... the result will be compared... The thing is, I believe not only does the parents compare the kids, the kids too... ' Yeeeahhhh, I have the bigger apple ...'
Anyway, I better put down what I want to say so I can get back to my work.. When you compare to someone who you think is more fortunate than you, try to change it, just try your best to improve your life... You have been blessed with a loving parents and everything is ready... Yet, if there is something that you cannot change, look at those who is less fortunate than you, dun pity them though... (in bible, when you pity someone, you are actually placing yourself in a higher level, and that is how pity come up). Appreciate what you have, cherish every moment, thanks your parents for what they give.

Oh well, this seemed to be another weird post...already lost my point somewhere, somehow... haha.. Thanks sis for sharing that wonderful story...

2009-07-28T07:27:00.002+08:00

There is no excuse, just that I was sort of heartbroken, that is the reason I didn't blog. I do not want to post my return date in facebook as it will be seen by too many people, where I might not feel comfortable. But it is ok here, as not too many people read my blog. Only a few of closer one who keep demanding me to blog blog blog. After ten year, I finally going home... in less than 2 weeks. Wonder if I can get used to everything there... Oh well, afterall, it is the place where I was born, right? First thing to do, definitely laksa... Gosh, Don't even have a chance to eat laksa the last time I go home... Maybe I should have laksa everyday.... haha
Wonder if I should feel happy or sad? Friends here were pretty upset about my decision of back home for good, while, mum and dad, and sis, and couple of friends were excited about my decision.... Will definitely miss all these friends.... Will definitely miss the life style here... But, I think it is time to start my own new life.. A whole new life... Hopefully will be the better one... Just a hope....

Hypnosis

2009-07-08T14:22:00.002+08:00

Always wondering how it will be like to be hypnotised. My landlord rent me a cd about the hypnosis where after being hypnotised, you can see your past... interesting hah...
Probably because 2 days of not enough sleep, the brain is just not working properly, cannot really get myself relax... Thus, the hypnosis is declared fail... I dunno, I dun think I believe in past life, and I hope there is not next life either. I was told that if you do not believe in this, it is sort of hard to be hypnotised... The problem is, after a day of ghost talk, I am sort of scared of dark AGAIN... How am I suppose to relax myself, how am I suppose to see my past life??? According to the book written by this Dr., which I was told is extremely popular, the people around you are the people you encounter in your past life, --make sense, everybody else say the same thing.. Isn't it interesting if you find yourself in other century perhaps and in opposite sex... hmmm... Gambatee, need to try it again and again, until it work... I am gone mad

Ghost

2009-07-07T08:00:00.002+08:00

Ghost is the thing I scare the most.. I always thot that there is no ghost in US, only in M'sia. But then I was told today that I live in a state where the whole state is full of ghost... Faint

2009-07-01T15:21:00.004+08:00

Same thing happened 10 years ago... Same thought, same feeling, waiting for the same answer, same situation, just opposite direction.... And I believe I will get the same answer again. I let faith choose where I will reside... I guess I know the result already, but just refuse to believe it...
So far, I think I never really decide for myself, my decision is always for the sake of people around me. Oh my god, it is really 10 years. I do not know what I want. Actually I do, but I never really do according to what I really want.... A lazy person who never fight for what she really wish for -- that is me!!

Jogging

2009-06-28T12:38:00.002+08:00

Went jogging on friday night. It had been a long long time since I jog... Haha, too lazy.. Jogging in a park where there is alot of mosquitoes. But it was really fun. So nice to run when it is not that hot, and trees around.
Jogging was an exercise I used to do when I was in penang. Remember dad always turn on the radio in the highest volume just to wake us up to went jogging... Haha, hate it when dad do that... But we tend to do that every weekend... Wake up early, drive to the mengkuang dam, start jogging... Oh well, we will have our reward after that... Dim Sum.... hahaaha... Daddy used to threat us that we will not have dim sum if we didn't wake up. But, to be honest, I prefer to sleep in then have dim sum last time. That's why I always pray that it will rain on weekend... No more jogging.... haha
But, come to think of it now... it was fun..

2009-06-28T10:04:00.002+08:00

I do not know what topic to add today... Hmm.. Some topic appropriate for a friend of mine to add a comment... Hmmm... what should I write????
Well, since he is a high school classmate, then I guess should have talk about high school memory... Well, I guess ever since form 1, I am the tallest girl in my class.. Normally I sit at the last row of the class. Oh well, was not comfortable with that, because when you sit at the very last row, it is kind of hard to concentrate in the lecturer... Haha, but then when I get to form 3/4, start to prefer to sit at the back already... Anyway, who know, I was late the first day of class in Form 5, and stuck with the first row, and 2nd column (haha, kind of weird to say it like this). And the people at the back will keep shout out, " hey chin, you head'", then I have to duck, worst experience for me, haha..
But, I have to admit, form 5 was a fun year, other than the exam preparation. Believe it or not, sometime these days, I still have a bad dream that I am taking the exam without any preparation, going there without prepare anything... haha... Oh well, I guess the teachers start go easy on us, letting us relax in the class, but prepare for the best in the exam... everyone is trying to encourage each one, and helping each other..
I don't think he is gonna leave any comment in this blog, as my head is blank... and this seemed like I don't know what this is...

2009-06-26T10:44:00.002+08:00

It is time to change. people keep asking me what my decision is, after all these while, I should have make up my mind about what I want to do.. So, what do I want to do??? I don't know. really don't

Eponine

2009-06-25T11:12:00.005+08:00

Haha, it has been a week since I stop blogging, but it feel like forever.. Oh well, was listening to the les miserable while driving just now and really want to talk about the character Eponine.. A girl who sacrifies herself for the man she loves even though she know she will never has his heart.
Les miserable like it's name suggested is a very sad sad story.. The story take place in the French Revolution. A life where slavery is still promoted. Wealthy and poor has a huge gap. Well, the character Eponine has a parents which I don't think care much of her, and she also fall in love with a guy who fall for someone else.. At the end, she died, well, the good thing is she died beside the one she love.. Still, her parents didn't even care. Hmm... think of that and think how lucky I am, I know that if anything really happened to me, I will have my parents' tear. Not that I want to. But, seriously, it is so depressing that after her dead, her parents don't even care but celebrating with the money they make from stealing from the dead people. She is not an orphan but I think she was treat worst than an orphan.. and feel worst than an orphan..
An orphan can accept no love more than an ordinary child who has parents but care nothing for them...
Oh well, actually has lot to share just now when listen to the musical, but now.... all gone...

If I were to have cancer

2009-06-15T11:07:00.004+08:00

Well, this seemed like a negative thought, but it is something that can help to decide who to be with for the whole life.. This morning, my friend told me a story about a lady in her 40, found out that she has cancer in her lung, and brain, or something else... Not so sure lah.. Somehow came across this issue a lot today (Just need to clarify that I am not the one who brought it out). She didn't worry about her illness, nor think of what to do, just do what she like. Taking care of all homeless dogs she cames accross. Taking care of them, and cure the sick doggies. .. It is a miracle that she was cured finally without any medicine and what so ever operation. Then my friend said that a person's emotion can actually helped to cure the cancer.. Actually, I do heard about the fact that everyone do own cancer cell in their body, just the matter if it spread or not. Depression and negative thought will accelerated the spreading of the cancer's cell, and that is why people are advise to think positive and happy all the time....

There is a question that came across my mind, if I were to have cancer, will I get any support from anyone other than my family? The support I mean != pitiness.... Who will be the person that is willing to walk me through the last part of my life...

Oh well, I think that is negative enough... haha..

But, I guess this can really help people to decide who to be with. The one that you think can help you cure the cancer if you ever have one. Just ask yourself this question: will he make the cancer cell spread faster, or will he make it gone...

2009-06-15T01:31:00.001+08:00

Gosh, I think I am really gonna be crazy soon. Boss keep sending me message everyday, telling me this and that... It is a saturday and sunday.. Thanks for pointing it out, and apparently he didn't go to church. Still, why ruin my weekend every week.

Mosquitoes bites

2009-06-14T22:27:00.006+08:00

Haven't have mosquitoes bites for years, and now it is so itchy... Beh tahan liao lah....

Haha, was telling Amy that I start to pick up Malaysian English lately.. Adding the ah, lah, mah at the back of each sentence. Malaysian English is surely interesting. Wonder why adding these expressions at the back of each sentence.

Anyway, I remember I took one engineering course in the college where the professor make us give presentation all the time. During the presentation, he will count how many "hmmm.." that is used in our presentation. According to him, that is something used by the presentor to kill the silence as well as the nervous. Yet, it showed inconfident, and ruin the professionalism of the presentation... According to him, presentor expressing hmmm... as in they are thinking.. but why telling people you are thinking. Just go ahead and think inside and tell your opinion... The best way of showing confident.

Anyway, i know the theory, and I haven't been able to excel it.. As a matter of fact, I am extremely scare of presentation. Whole face turn red..

2009-06-14T09:31:00.001+08:00

So tired after 5 hours drive... gonna sleep instead of think what to write

2009-06-12T12:14:00.002+08:00

I do not intend to skip one day... But just got delay...
well, I have been thinking, ... in order to conquer my weaknesses, I need to face it.. So, let see what my weaknesses is...
The worst one is I afraid of changes... A friend once introduce me a book, named who moved my cheese, it is talking about changes.. Afraid of changes is one the worst obstacles to success...
Second, lazy... I have so much in my mind to write, but just too lazy and tired to type... maybe later lah...
hehe

believe

2009-06-11T05:15:00.004+08:00

When there is a road, there is a way

Just wonder how true this is. But all I can do is believe in it....

Haha, this is just a testing blog about the quote function in the toolbar. Sometime, there are just some functions in the toolbar that you will never used... You might not even know what it does... So, once in a while, spend some time, go through every button in the toolbar, and you might find something that you will used alot in the future...

How will you die?

2009-06-11T03:53:00.002+08:00

A friend of mine play a game in fb..name as " How will you die?" Would you ever want to know how you will die? I guess, this is the thing that you just want to get over with and never have a flash back, never again.. It is funny how the creator create this game, as well as anyone decided to play it.. How do you know the way people die? And why do you want to know? Peaceful or not, knowing it is no longer peaceful. I recalled the movie "knowing", the fear of knowing about death is unbearable.... That is what make the movie so creepy...

Purposely skip one day

2009-06-10T11:23:00.002+08:00

Haha, it is not good to get used to thing.. After posting blog everyday, feel like there is something for me to do. I need to make it on time to post my blog so that I will not skip a day.. Well, was planning to skip yesterday already, but just can't help but remind myself that I need to do it... I need to write a blog.. Yesterday was a success, today however, --- failed

whinning

2009-06-07T19:47:00.002+08:00

Hmm... Ever got a feeling that when something turn bad, everything else will follow? Somehow it always happened to me... got a friend lecturer me in the morning, then another in the afternoon... I guess I am just the type that love to whinning alot... Never took any action, just whinning....... Hate myself for that.

Speaking chinese

2009-06-07T11:59:00.004+08:00

Just have a very interesting conversation with a customer in the restaurant tonight.. At first, he complement my english... Haha, feel pretty good and almost gonna fly... Then, he start to chat with my boss, and omg, his chinese is excellent, if you chat with him over the phone, you might thought that he is from beijing... dang, he was just being nice...Also, not only can he speak mandarin, he can speak cantonese as well.... Anyway, he told me an interesting story, his own funny experience as a matter of fact when he visited taiwan while he was young...
He live in a hotel where he can have access to the beach.. just like in m'sia, the beach is open to the public and there are a lot of taiwanese going there too.... Most American has a full chest hair, so as he.. While he was lying on the sand wearing only the trunk, there come two girls walk past him and said -- 看，这里躺着只狗熊。 he was saying because of the black and white (still dun get it). Anyway, he didn't say anything nor have a funny look on his face, just stay still.. After a while, he swam over to the ladies and said, " excuse me, 很不好意识，你们应该没想到这只狗熊会说中文。". Those two ladies turn all red immediately... He is actually pretty mean lah... who know he knew fluence chinese...
But, I guess everyone should beware that nowadays more and more people learn chinese.. As they believe China is gonna be strong and become a more promising and developing country, they feel the need of speaking chinese will provide them a better opportunity... therefore, please beware and do not speak of stuff that will embarrased yourself... As I believe I sort of did myself this morning....
Also, this is not the first story I heard about so far....

Ice Quart Venti Vanila Whole Milk Latte

2009-06-07T11:33:00.007+08:00

Finally decided to pamper myself with starbuck coffee.. Hehe, Ice quart Venti Vanila Whole Milk Latte.. My favourite so far. I am not that fancy to customize my coffee ...But, after a long time drinking experience, you just have to customize it. The first time I drink vanila latte was year 2004 I think, the year I graduated from ASU. I work in a Japanese restaurant and a friend of mine bought it as a treat as I have done him a favor... Ever since then, the nightmare began..
What I drank at first is only a tall vanila latte-- simple and clear, then I noticed the price different between tall and venti is not that much, just about a quarter, then I start to order venti, haha--- venti vanila latte... Then I feel that the vanila is sometime to sweet, I decided to make it a little bit bitter, I add one more shot of expresso to the drink..., so, it become ice quart Venti Vanila latte... Later, it was 2 years ago, wonder whose idea it was to change the whole milk to 2% milk, already used to the whole milk favor, so, my drink now has the longest name so far, Ice Quart Venti Vanila Whole Milk Latte.. Hopefully won't get any longer...
I also like it hot, but normally drink ice in summer and hot in winter...
Anyway, it had been a while since I last drink latte, used to drink it everyday... One of the reason I love this drink is because if the baritos make it right, it tasted just like a good durian... the malaysian durian which has the sweet plus bitter favor.... haha

懶

2009-06-07T01:40:00.002+08:00

本该回公司做没做完的事，但开始收缩了。不想动。